Having a very hard time letting go

I hate feeling like and outsider when it comes to you

I wish I could say or do something that would make things alright …. I fucking miss everything we had

Damn :(

I’m here with you and I feel blessed to still have you here on this earth to share these days with me. I love you Grandma Pat and we are going to ride this thing out and walk out of this hospital better then ever. I love you lady I got your back…. <3 <3 <3…..xoxoxoxoo

This is the time where I really need you to put all your bull shit to the side and really be my friend and be there for me. I want my friend right now more then anything else.

Im praying that you will be ok. I love you and im going to ride this thing out with you.

Writing in my little black book

It’s just the two of us

After almost two years my uncle is moving out. He ask to stay with me for 4 to 5 months at the most and it’s been 1 year and 8 months. Happy Happy Happy am I. Loving Life Right Now :-) :-)

Making the best with what I have. It may not be much now but it will be in the END….one day at a time

Just sitting here with you I’m cool with that. Making small talk feeling funny about it but hey have to start somewhere. It will be ok one day i guess.

I hope to one day be laying next to you as your sleeping with our little one on your chest looking at the both of you with tears of joy in my eyes. Thinking of all we have been through and how lucky I am to have had a chance to rebuild the things I lost in you and to know that love is like glue. It will help see you through. I know that I TRULY TRULY DO LOVE YOU.
#respect #trust #honor #love #trust #family

I think of us often…….